Sad

Ok, so I'm a little high strung about flying, and this whole story has upset me a little. I decided that maybe I should write something down and get all my feelings out, and then maybe I can move on plus talk myself into feeling better while I'm at it. First off though, if you don't know of which story I am speaking, it is on the loss of the Air France Flight 447. I would like to first say that I am extremely saddened for the loss for all of the families of the vicitims. I can't imagine very many things that would be worse to go through. My prayers are with them. I truly, truly hope that they can feel some sort of comfort right now. Now in my attempt to get my feelings out and just to the random world, and not to have to make any one person listen to my rant... so now one of my big fears in flying have been confirmed. First of all, I have always hated turbulence, but have taken some measure of comfort in the fact that as most people always tell me " turbulence isn't enough to bring down a big jet, you never hear about that! Seriously, that never happens, you only hear about other big problems that make jets crash!" And, for the most part I have always believed that to be true, and it always made me feel better . Now, I BEG TO DIFFER. Second of my worst fears in dying in a plane crash over the ocean. I have always said that if I was going to die in a plane crash, I would much, much rather it be over land than over the ocean. At least then they can eventually for sure find the crash site. NOW, we can see why I think this way. The thought of boarding a plane to fly off into the sunset Amelia Earheart style, like these unfortunate people just did is simply awful to me. Vanishing. My worst nightmare. I am also upset that it was an Air France Flight, Air France is one of our go to airlines of choice, and has almost always given us great service, unlike some other notable American companies, i.e. Continental, (yes, I am speaking to you!) anyway, they have never had something like this happen, and I am positive that it will be a major jolt to the whole country. My thoughts are also with the 7 children and baby that were on the flight, it really breaks my heart to think of how scared they must have been. I'm sure the adults were all upset as well, but thinking about the children just breaks my heart. Anyway, here's what I've come to after thinking about it for two days. In this particular case, I am taking comfort in the fact that they experts seem to think that it probably happened quite quickly since there wasn't a mayday signal, hopefully indicating that the pilot didn't have time. If something like this is someone's fate, it would be nice to make it quick. And, after really thinking about it, if it is your fate to die in a plane crash, then it is probably really your time to go. Not much you can do about it. If my little family died in a plane crash like this, then it would be ok, we would all die together. That is a good thing I guess. One big fear I have about dying is leaving my kids without their mom, so this would be one less worry for me! But last of all, I think this whole thing really has been good for me, because I have really decided to try to not be so worried about flying. If it is our time, it is time, and we need to live our lives to the fullest. I don't want to let my anxiety stop me from having some really great experiences in life. Things happen for a reason, and there is a Plan for all of us, and I need to do a better job of just trusting in that Plan. People learn important lessons from tragedy, so it is never all bad. My prayers are with you.